Life of Rachel

All this apprehension and tension
Trauma responses and lost causes
Heightened heart rates not blushes
Quiver in fear but not in pleasure
Go to confession for good measure
All is not love when it’s liability
Saved from what is not good for me
Fine line between butterflies and anxiety
Is it a fear response or am I giddy
Am I broken or just self protecting
Am I flexible or really just bending
Under the pressure, the rules to be loved
Is this attraction or really fawning
Do I run away or continue defending
Do I succumb myself to a violent chase
Or submit my soul to pride-shattering grace?